Saturday, April 1, 2023
Jennifer Ann Nymann,
They say it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. What they don't tell you is that love when it is someone who is not a spouse who is and always has been literally half of you, exactly you no matter what you do. On so many levels and in every act all together. God you are so good for giving me someone so precious. I am so traumatized by the fact of how her phones locations were not where they should be after the so called passing that I cannot comprehend this is the outcome. Everyday I think of you. Not one day goes by where there is not a reason that I have to call you. Yet now there is no one. No family no friends no one anywhere who can replace you and no matter how hard I try. It seems like without you I am totally separated from our whole family. I have been cut off from even your children which is absurd to me because who better on this earth to comfort them. Then moi, your identical twin. I cannot fathom this is the outcome and until I physically get to do what I feel is necessary. I don't think I will ever surrender to what I have been told is the hands down greatest loss of my life and nothing will ever compare. When you are an identical twin your other half is your twin. Maybe a spouse is added to you but everything that is anything to you is found equally within the mind, actions, heart, life of your identical sibling. I love you I miss you so dearly. I spend sometimes hours thinking and praying for you about you and your children etc. If you have genuinely left me. May your heart be filled with compassion and send good energy to your children and to my children and my life, may every shooting star I see for the rest of my life represent all that you have to tell me. May you visit me and talk to me in my dreams may you enlighten my mind and get me driven in the right direction and rekindle my children and yours unto me considering I am officially cut off without you. I love you more than words can say and I've never been so alone without you.
